Preface Blue Eyes inparadise（第1页）

Preface　BlueEyesin“paradise”

Preface　Blue　Eyes　in“paradise”

I　have　never　lived　in　Heaven。

Oero　quit　a　superior　job　and　a　fortable　life　and　go　abroad　alone。Someoory　that　I　would　go　marry　an　Ameriy　frie　was　an　Amerian　that　made　me　so　desperately　determined。Well，frankly，I　had　met　a　senior　U。S。Representative　and　we　became　good　friends。This　halemaal　lover　and　I　was　obsessed　so　much，as　his　love，social　status　ah　were　all　so　attractive。We　did　speak　different　lah　distiural　bads，but　still，I　tried　to　love　and　be　loved。We　exged　love　letters　translated　by　my　sed　affes　were　borers。I　started　to　yearn　fe　and　distant　try　the　Ues　of　Ameri　I　got　to　Honolulu，a　srand　atmosphere　and　sound　released　my　dream。Love，at　that　moment，was　as　thin　as　a　wisp　of　nostalgia。I　was　a　bit　hesitated，but　that　ot　prevent　my　　the　heart:I　was　to　get　married!

But　ected　that　I　was　to　marry　a　wonderful　land　in　the　paradise?

The　long　road　for　Heaven　was　tough，as　if　time　did　not　have　s　anied　by　shadows。With　the　feeling　of　a　half　journalist　and　a　professional　andering　around　in　the　paradise。I　would　love　to　speak　with　ao　when　I　expressed　my　feelings，I　was　actually　a　se。

This　paradise　had　never　been　hard　and　et　a　group　of　great　Ameri　the　way　to　it。I　got　to　kns　about　life，trying　to　tou　the　roots　of　Ameris，their　sod　culture，sensibility　and　sex，religion　and　family，wealth　ahis　ealiemptio　go　further，just　like　rod　sea　breeze　toug　the　land　gradually。I　was　an　untrained　singer　hearing　ey　singing　in　an　open　land。ing　d　fag　the　try，I　retty　sure　that　I　was　in　love　i　may　ant　that　whether　I　was　close　to　the　real　paradise，as　I　said　in　a　poem:“When　I　exged　time　with　Heaveo　the　genuine　paradise。”

I　ever　walk　out　of　America's　passion　when　I　was　surroundii。I　saw　the　beauty　of　a　substarying　to　look　at　the　root　of　the　sod　culture　of　the　Ues，ing　its　histraphy，survival　priories。When　moder　old　ohis　try　played　its　ow　a　rhythm　refleg　the　true　color　of　the　Ues。

The　Ameris　would　en　in　the　d　nor　would　they　be　emptied　irue　Ameris　cherished　love　aed　heroes，which　could　be　told　from　two　popular　souvenirs　in　New　York　after　the　terrorist　attacks:clothes　prih“GDNY”aball　caps（Mr。Rudolph　W　Giuliani，the　mayor　of　New　York　City　liked　weariball　d　worked　at　World　Trade　ter　grouhis　respected　mayor　was　tortured　by　cer，but　still　worked　i　line。）I　had　maions　with　the　d　the　people，among　which　were　people　had　worked　irade　ter。I　got　the　first-hand　materials　on　unknown　stories　of　ese　people　iack。But　I　didn't　talk　about　them。I　just　me　an　Ameri　read　Byroon's　poem（1906）loudly　fag　the　grouhe　coastal　areas。I　ly　moved　by　the　fact　that　people　were　so　close　to　their　hearts　when　spets　came。

Ameri　d　society　were　brilliaure　might　not　be　fi　it　would　never　disappoint　you。A　city　had　its　own　culture，as　a　land　had　its　own　history。But　that　ot　be　t　with　people's　g　mind，though　it　also　kept　g　i　erated　ould　like　to　do　　a　few　feathers　of　thoughts　in　the　drizzling　breeze　of　Ameri　culture。The　city　was　a　cultural　spa　I　was　ee　certs，the　traditional　and　modern　musicals　echoed　with　a　feeling　of　toug　ambers。In　a　senior　uhe　beauty　of　iioween　human　a　the　backdrop　of　a　suhe　momeo　believe　that　these　arts　of　culture。

&ed　States　was　actually　very　weak　ierreted　the　uuhe　ew　York，this　metropolitan　city　would　be　paralyzed　ht。Several　aers　could　cause　great　pani　the　whole　try。The　funal　authority　of　the　US　gover　has　been　weakening　si　Regan。The　ma　of　prisoy　　airports　has　beeo　private　pahis　was　not　my　foterest，as　after　all，I　was　not　sociologist　but　a　strahe　moving　crowds。I　't　reach　very　deeply　in　the　soul　of　the　try。But　I　found　that　the　sod　culture，from　the　perspective　of　a　scholar，could　a

It　touched　the　roots　of　desire。ehis　ight　ely　right　。It　just　stood　in　front　of　the　world　with　a　disguise　of　philosophy，a　you　feel　it　with　your　heart　and　wisdom。Sometimes　it　showed　a　sense　of　humor（like　a　edy）and　made　you　realize　its　natural　essence。You　would　suddehe　flora　and　fauna　turning　into　a　bird　paradise。

U　tation　heaven　full　of　desire。New　York　City　was　the　most　qualified　showcase。You　would　shrink　into　a　particle　of　dust　surrounded　by　Manhattan's　skysight　be　mired　iy　ireasure　island。You　would　look　ba　the　Peal　Harbor　atta　the　deck　of　the　Carrier　。You　would　likely　beedia　of　desire　backed　with　the　hegemony　of　the　ould　just　push　you　to　the　limit　to　exert　yourself。

&ed　States，in　some　way，was　a　try　where　you　could　s　more。Ameris　were　stumbling　through　reality　full　of　risks。It　was　the　internal　power　of　life　that　made　people　quit　or　yield。Ameri　preferred　letting　you　know　their　love　and　passioh　all　emotioails。Amerieo　explore　many　opportunities　and　aplish　ats　under　men's　ambitions。The　social　life　of　the　upper　bition　and　desire　i　way，like　oned　in　a　harp。It　was　u　you　could　be　u　shocked。You　pt　from　desire　and　ambitions。As　far　as　the　whole　try　is　ed，the　Ues　grew　up　to　be　a　hegemoer　World　War　II。The　try's　developmehing。Mr。Gee　Kee　of　Nobel　Peace　Prize，expressed　his　opinions　to　the　gress　in　1948:“We　have　about　50%of　the　world's　wealth，but　only　6。3%of　its　populatio　fail　to　be　the　objevy　a。Our　task。。。is　to　devise　a　patterionships　which　will　permit　us　to　maintain　this　position　of　disparity。。。we　should　cease　to　talk　about。。。uives　such　as　human　rights，the　raising　of　living　standards，aization。。。”

Ameris'desire　eaceful　fire。It　had　the　heritage　od　Mauike　in　Polynesians'myth　stories。This　try　was　a　fairy　tale　created　by　its　people，er　that　was“through　flowers”（Judy　Chicago），a　power　of　women　and　　in　a　men's　world。

A　woman　looking　at　a　nation's　ost　likely　take　a　materive。I　was　searerien's　roots，and　suddenly　found　that　women　here　were　a　kind　ion，a　truth　and　brilliant　power　beyoio　closer　to　the　upper　　this　try，I　was　getting　to　know　106-year-　Mei-ling，widow　of　g　Kai-shek（late　President　of　Kuo　Min　Tang），Mr。Kofi　Annan's　wife，Mrs。Anna　ault，Mrs。Lily　Lee　d　Mrs。Yue-Sai　Kan。They，of　course，ot　represent　all　Amerien，but　their　life　stories　were　epitome　of　womehe　states。Though　Ameriight　not　ask　for　so　mahings　as　en　did，they　were　w　hard　in　takiheir　families　as　well。They　believed　that　life，for　women，was　beyond　politid　all　tangible　forms。Life　had　the　very　ideal　substance。I　passioioory　between　a　50-year-old　rofessor　and　her　20-year-old　boyfrie　mother。She　had　lost　two　sh　various　hardships，but　still，she　mao　lead　a　brilliahere　were　many　womehe　U。S。，but　among　various　priheories　hts　protepaigns　audy　groups，there　were　two　maiheory　of　essehe　theory　of　culture。Despite“cultural　sedimentatioraps”，Amerien's　status　could　always　reveal　their　capability　and　aents。Ameri　culture　geed　a　level　playing　field　for　women　so　that　they　ortuo　shape　their　own　styles　ahey　were　able　to　away　from　the　bindiernal　form　of　family　a　in　a　free　world　of　home。

&ill　the　roots　of　the　sense　of　family　i　I　ot　give　a　full　explanatioions　of　Ameri“family”。Family　was　the　in　of　ese　people's　life，the　start　and　end　of　life　journey。Whenever　we　ese　stopped，walked　away，left　hometow　under　a　roof，family　was　always　ihe　Ues，the　biggest　uhe　absolute　freedom　that　ot　be　bound　by　blood　relationships　and　family　love。I　was　staying　i　Ameri　families　to　feel　the　Ameri　characteristiily”，and　I　pared　that　with　ese　ily”ial

Pe　on　family　as　plants　on　land。Ameri　said　that　they　would　like　to　speired　life　iown。So“leaves　fallen　to　the　land”had　unique　philosophig　here。From　the　very　start　to　the　e　was　the　other　way　round。“Family”served　as　a　means　as　well　as　a　goal，retty　much　like　the　Zen's　thought:virtually　unified。

Mr。Bill　Gates，the　ri　in　the　world，has$8。3　billion　worth　of　property。He　has　based　the　headquarters　of　Mi　Seattle，the　etown。His　attat　to　Seattle　is　greater　than　that　to　the　Ihat　Seattle　is　his　hometown　and　he　't　be　separated　from　it，as　this　place　has　raised　him　ashihe　rie　is　just　besides　the　lake。

Many　Ameriior　people　would　rather　move　out　of　their　houses　and　live　in　seers。They　might　pass　away　in　a　strament　peacefully。I　oood　in　froomb　　Xueliang　and　his　wife。It　le　tomb　that　　make　me　sad。I　ever　imagi　General　Zhang　Xuelia　in　peace　here　food。No　any　sense　of　power。hing。The　General　had　left　the　world　in　a　truly　simple　way。Then　I　suffered　from　insomnia　for　quite　a　loil　I　deething　about　it。I　went　to　pay　a　call　t's　son　in　San　Frand　thought　about　establishing　a　General　Zhang　Xueliang's　Fund　to　buy　his　old　house。　on　it，I　suddenly　found　out　that　General　Zhang　had　not　got　an　old　house　in　Hawaii，and　he　had　been　living　in　a　seill　the　end　of　his　life。People　remi　he　had　been　very　mu　Ameri。This　catholic　r　for　a　simple　a　life。Wasn't　it　a　noble　and　reserved　sensibility?Maybe　it　was　true　that　ese　people　were　used　to　keep　things　inside，and　would　he　deep　feelings　to　other　people　easily。This　had　a　root　in　ese　long　history　ahe　U。S。，making　things　knoay　t　kio　pe　you。The　word“family”i　of　Ameri　culture　would　be　a　mixture　of　interery。Just　like　a　sincere　person　did　alk　about　iy　all　the　time，aion　had　its　own　　of　being　frank。Ameri“family”was　a　bination　of　sey。

I　was　crazily　looking　at　and　toug　this　try　with　aivation，as　if　I　were　to　marry　in　a　Heavee　my　life　to　it。I　was　uttering　crazy　talks　in　the　grope　for　Ameri　roots，and　got　intoxicated　by　different　views　and　sarios　oo　the　paradise。So　finally，I　wrote　down　my　feelings　aanding　of　all　this　with　a　woman's　sincere　words　of　poem。

I　loved　this　try　wheing　d　closer　to　it，aet　it　ihs　of　desire，I　had　fot　my　status　as　a　passenger　ahrough　dreams　that　ot　have　been　imagined　before。

&epped　oairs　of　the　plao　Hong　Ko　hands　to　that　an　still　i　so　grateful　and　told　myself　i:

You　are　my　pearl　and　my　dirt，

I　have　beeo　a　great　feast　on　my　way　te，

&y　of　the　paradise　has　been　broken，

I　have　gh　the　bright　of　flowers，

&hough　it　is　the　least　appropriate　time

Xiaoye　Xiuzi

&h，2005