Text A Everything Will Change for the Better(第1页)
TextAEverythingWillgefortheBetter
AnneFrank
TranslatedbySusanMassotty
SATURDAY,JULY15,1944
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[1]We’vereceivedabookfromthelibrarywiththegtitleWhatDoYouThinkoftheMirl?I’dliketodiscussthissubjecttoday。
[2]Thewritercriticizes“today’syouth”fromheadtotoe,thoughwithoutdismissingthemallas“hopelessthetrary,shebelievestheyhaveitwithintheirpowertobuildabigger,betteraifulworld,butthattheyoccupythemselveswithsuperfigs,withoutgivingathoughttotruebeauty。InsomepassagesIhadthestrothewriterwasdiregherdisapprovalatme,whichiswhyIfinallywanttobaremysoultoyouanddefendmyselfagainstthisattack。
[3]Ihaveoandingcharactertraitthatmustbeobvioustoanyonewho’sknthoftime:Ihaveagreatdealofself-knowledge。IhingIdo,IwatchmyselfasifIwereastranger。IdatheeverydayAhoutbeingbiasedexcuses,watchwhatshe’sdoing,boththegoodahisself-awarenessneverleavesme,aimeIopenmymouth,Ithink,“Youshouldhavesaidthatdifferently”or“That’sfiis”。IyselfinsomanywaysthatI’mbeginhetruthe:“Everychildhastoraiseitself。”Parentslyadvisetheirorpoiherightdireately,peopleshapetheirowncharaadditioharaordinaryamounte。Ifeelsandcapableburdens,soyoungandfree!WhenIfirstrealizedthis,Iwasglad,becauseitmeansImoreeasilywithstandtheblowslifehasinstore。
[4]ButI’vetalkedaboutthesethingssooften。NowI’dliketoturer“FatheraUandMe”。Myparentshavealoiledmerotteedmekindly,defethevanDaansaparentsdyetfesttimeI’vefeltextremelylo,edaood。Fatherdideverythiocurbmyrebelliousspirit,butitwasnouse。I’vecuredmyselfbyholdingmybehavioruptothelightandlookingatwhatIwasd。
[5]Whydidmeinmystruggle?Whydidhefallshortwheooffermeahelpinghand?Theansweris:heusedthewrohods。HealwaystalkedtomeasifIwereagthroughadifficultphase。ItsoundsceFather’stheonlyonewho’sgivenmeasenseofdmademefeelasifI’maseheoverlookedohioseethatthisstruggletotriumphovermydifficultieswasmoreimportahananythiwa“typicaladoless”irls”or“you’llgrowoutofit”。Ididn’twaedthesameasall-the-irls,butasAnne-in-her-ht,andRimdidhat。Besides,Ifideiheytellmealotaboutthemselves,andbeowverylittleabouthim,I’tgetoefooting。Rimalwaysactsliketheelderlyfatherwhoohesamefleetiwhogerrelatetomeasafriend,nomatterhowhardhetries。Asaresult,I’veneversharedmyoutlook-pohamydiaryand,onawhile,Margot。I’vehidanythinghavingtodowithmefromFather,neversharedmyidealswithhim,deliberatelyalienatedmyselffromhim。
[6]I’thavedoanyotherway。I’veletmyselfbeguidedentirelybymyfeelings。Itwasegotistical,butI’vedowasbestformyownpeaind。Iwouldlosethat,plustheself-ceI’veworkedsohardtoachieve,ifIweretobesubjectedtocriticismhalfwaythroughthejob。Itmaysoued,butI’ttakecritieither,beotonlydoIneversharemyihoughtswithhim,butI’vepushedhimevenfurtherawaybybeingirritable。
[7]ThisisapointIthinkaboutquiteoften:whyisitthatRimannoysmesomues?Ihardlybeartohavehimtutorme,andhisaffesforttobeleftalone,andI’dratherheignoredforawhileuntilI’mmoresureofmyselfwhenI’mtalkingtohim!I’mstilltuiltyaboutthemeaetohimset。Oh,it’shardtandbraveinevery>
[8]Still,thishasn’tbeedisappoi。No,IthinkaboutPetermuchmorethanIthinkaboutFather。Ikhathewasmyquest,aherwayarouedanimageofhiminmymind,picturedhimasaquiet,sweet,sensitiveboybadlyinneedoffriendshipandlove!Iopouroutmyhearttoalivingperson。Iwantedafriendwhowouldhelpmefindmywayagain。IaplishedwhatIsetouttodoanddrewhim,slowlybutsurely,towardme。WhenIfinallygothimtobemyfriend,itautomaticallydevelopedintoanintimacythat,whenIthinkaboutitrageous。Wetalkedaboutthemostprivatethings,butwehaveouthethiomyheart。Istill’tmakeheadortailofPeter。Ishesuperficial,orisitshyholdshimbawithme?Butputtingallthataside,Imadeoake:Iusedintimacytoget,andindoingso,Iruledoutotherformsoffrieobeloved,andIseehe’sbeginningtolikememoreassingday。etherleaveshimfeelingsatisfied,butjustmakesmewanttostartallain。Ineverbroachthesubjegtoutintotheopeer,morethaogete,andnowhe’sholdingonfordearlife。Iholydon’tseeaivewayofshakinghimoffainghimbahisow。Isoonrealizedheeverbeaki,butstilltriedtohelphimbreakoutofhisnarroandhisyouthfulhorizons。
[9]“Deepdown,theyoungareloheold。”Ireadthisinabooksomewhereandit’sstumymind。AsfarasItell,it’strue。
[10]Soifyou’rewwhetherit’sharderfortheadultsherethanforthe,theanswerisno,it’slynot。Olderpeoplehaveanopiniohingandaresureofthemselvesaions。It’stwiceashardfpeopletoholdontoouropinionsatatimewhenidealsarebeingshatteredaroyed,whesideofhumanes,wheneveryonehasetodoubttruth,justidGod。
[11]Anyonewhoclaimsthattheolderfolkshaveamoredifficulttimeirealizethattheproblemshaveafargreaterimpaus。We’remuchtooyouheseproblems,buttheykeepthrustingthemselvesonusuntil,finally,we’reforcedtothinkupasolution,thoughmostofthetimeoursolutionscrumblewhehefacts。It’sdiffitimeslikethese:ideals,dreamsandcherishedhopesrisewithinus,onlytobecrushedbygrimreality。It’sawonderIhaven’tabandonedallmyideals,theyseemsoabsurdandimpractical。YetIbecauseIstillbelieve,inspite,thatpeoodatheart。
[12]It’sutterlyimpossibleformetobuildmylifeonafoundationofchaah。Iseethewslowlytraoawilderheapproaderthat,oneday,willdestroyustoo,Ifeelthesufferingofmillio,whenIlookupatthesky,Isomehowfeelthateverythingwillgeforthebetter,thatthiscrueltytooshallend,thatpeadtranquilitywillreturnohemeaholdontomyideals。Perhapsthedaywillewheorealizethem!
Yours,AnneM。Frank
[1993]
Notes
&AisoingfromAheDiaryofaYoungGirl。
2。AnneFrank(1929-1944):ShewasayoungJewishGermangirlwhogaiioerherdeathfollowiionofherdiary。Shewroteaboutherlife,thoughtsandexperiencesofhidingfromtheNazisinWorldWarII。Shediedaged15inaGermaioncamp。
3。Kitty:AnneFrank’sDiaryusedtheepistolaryform,aerswereaddressedtotheimaginary“Kitty”。
4。Margot:Aer。
5。TheAwasthehidingplaeFrank’sfamilyandtheirfriendswhilefleeingthehorrorsofNazio,whithebasterdamwarehouse。
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1。WriteTifthestatementistrueandFifitisfalseagtotheinformatioA。
1)AlthougheheAillgotacthelibrary。________
2)Aicized,forsheoccupiedherselfwithsuperfigs。________
3)Annewasagirlwithagreatdealofself-knowledge。________
4)Abelieveherparentstrulyuandher。________
5)AherdidAherout。________
6)Aheolderfolkshadamoredifficulttimeihe。________
7)Aerasherki。________
8)Aillquiteoptimisticaboutthefuture。________
2。DiscusswithyourpartheryouagreewithA。
1)I(agreedisagree)withAoneshouldhaveagreatdealofself-knowledge。Because。。。