Text A Confinement(第2页)
[26]ButJohnsaysifIfeelso,Ishallproperself-trol;soItakepainstoyself—beforehim,atleast,andthatmakesmeverytired。
[27]Idon’tlikeourroomabit。Iwaairsthatopehepiazzaandhadrosesallovertherettyold-fashiozhangings!ButJohnwould。
[28]Hesaidtherewasonlyonewindowandnotroomfortwobeds,andnonearroomforhimifhetookanother。
[29]Heisverydloving,andhardlyletsmestirwithoutspecialdire。
[30]Ihaveaschedulepresforeatheday;hetakesalle,andsoIfeelbaselyuovalueitmore。
[31]Hesaidwecameheresolelyonmyat,thatIerfedalltheairIcouldget。“Yourexerdsth,mydear,”saidhe,“andyourfoodsomewhatonyourappetite;butairyouabsorballthetime。”Sowetookthehetopofthehouse。
[32]Itisabig,airyroom,thewholefloorhwindowsthatlookallways,andairandsunshiwasandthenplayroomandgymnasium,Ishouldjudge;forthewindowsarebarredforlittle,andthereareringsandthingsinthe>
[33]Thepaintandpaperlookasifaboys’schoolhadusedit。Itisstrippedoff—thepaper—ichesallaroundtheheadofmybed,aboutasfarasIreaagreatplatheothersideoftheroomlowdown。Ineversaaperinmylife。
[34]Ohflamboyantpatternsittii。
[35]Itisdullenoughtofusetheeyeinfollowing,prootlyirritateaudy,andwhenyoufollowthelameuaincurvesforalittledistaheysuddenlyitsuicide—plueousahemselvesinunheardoftradis。
[36]Thecolorisrepellent,alm;asmuraheslsunlight。
[37]Itisadullyetlurideinsomeplaces,asicklysulphurtintinothers。
[38]hehatedit!IshouldhateitmyselfifIhadtoliveinthisroomlong。
[39]ThereesJohn,andImustputthisaway,—hehatestohaveme>
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[40]Wehavebeewoweeks,alikewritihatfirstday。
[41]Iamsittingbythe,upinthisatroursery,ahingtohiingasmuchasIplease,savelackth。
[42]Johnisawayallday,andeveswhenhiscasesareserious。
[43]Iamgladmyotserious!
[44]Buttheseroublesaredreadfullydepressing。
[45]JohknowhowmuchIreallysuffer。Heknowsthereisosuffer,andthatsatisfieshim。
[46]Ofcourseitisonlydoesweighoodomydutyinany>
[47]ImeanttobesuchahelptoJohn,sucharealrestandfort,andhereIamaparativeburdenalready!
[48]NobodywouldbelievewhataistodowhatlittleIamable,—todressaain,ahings。
[49]ItisfortunateMaryissogoodwiththebaby。Suchadearbaby!
[50]AIotbewithhim,itmakesmesonervous。
[51]IsupposeJohnneverwasnervousinhislife。Helaughsatmesoaboutthis>
[52]Atfirsthemeaheroom,butafterwardshesaidthatIwaslettiterofme,andthatnothingwasworseforaientthaosucies。
[53]Hesaidthataftertheerwasgeditwouldbetheheavybedstead,ahebarredwindows,agateattheheadofthestairs,andsoon。
[54]“Youknowtheplagyougood,”hesaid,“andreally,dear,Idoorehehousejustforathreemoal。”