最后的告白Words from the Heart(第1页)
最后的告白WordsfromtheHeart
佚名Anonymous
Mostpeoplehosethreelittlewords“Iloveyou。”Onawhile,theyhearthemjustintime。
&iethedayshewasadmittedtothehospiceorkedasavolunteer。Herhusband,Bill,stoodnervouslynearbyasshewastraheguralbed。Althoughiewasiagesainstcer,shewasalertandcheerful。Wegothersettledin。Ifinishedmarkingherhehospitalsuppliesshewouldbeusing,thenaskedifshehing。
“Oh,yes,”shesaid,“wouldyoupleaseshowmehowtousetheTV?IenjoythesoapssomudIdon’twabehindonening。”iewasaromantic。Shelovedsoapoperas,romanovelsahagoodlovestory。Aswebecameated,shefidedhitwastobemarried32yearstoamanwhooftencalledher“asilly>
“Oh,IknowBilllovesme,”shesaid,“buthehasosayhelovesme,orsende。”Shesighedahewindowatthetreesiyard。“I’dgiveanythingifhe’dsay’Iloveyou’,butit’sjustnotinhisnature。”
Billvisitedieeveryday。Inthebegitothebedwhileshewatchedthesoaps。Later,whenshebegansleepingmore,hepaddownthehallwayoutsideherroom。Soon,whenshechedtelevisionandhadfewerwakis,IbeganspendingmoreofmyvoluhBill。
&alkedabouthavingenteraogofishing。Heandiehadhey’dbeenebytraveling,untiliegotsick。Billotexpresshisfeelingsaboutthefactthathiswifewasdying。
Oneday,overthecafeteria,Igothimoofwomenandhowweneedromanourlives;howwelovetogetsealdloveletters。
“Doyoutellieyouloveher?”Iasked(knowinghisanswer),andhelookedatmeasifI>
“Idoo,”hesaid。“SheknowsIdo!”
“I’msuresheknows,”Isaid,reagoverandtoughishandsrough,ter’shandsthatweregrippingthecupasifitweretheonlythiohangonto。“Butsheohearit,Bill。Sheohearwhatshehasmeanttoyoualltheseyears。Pleasethinkaboutit。”
Wewalkedbaie’sroom。Billdisappearedinside,aovisita。Later,IsawBillsittingbythebed。Hewasholdingie’shahedate>
TwodayslaterIwalkeddownthehospicewardatoodBill,leaningupagainstthewallinthehallway,staringatthefloor。Ialreadykheheadiehaddiedat11a。m。?
WhenBillsawme,heallowedhimselftosftime。Hisfaceithtearsarembling。Finally,heleanedbastthewallandtookadeepbreath。
“Ihavetosaysomething,”hesaid。“IhavetosayhowgoodIfeelabouttellioppedtoblowhishoughtalotaboutwhatyousaid,andthismItoldherhowmuchIlovedher?andlovedbeioher。Youshouldseenhersmile!”
&heroomtosaymyowoie。There,oable,wasalargeValentineBill。Youkimentalkindthatsays,“Tomywonderfulwife?Iloveyou。”
多数人都喜欢听“我爱你”这三个小巧可爱的字眼。有时他们会在需要时听到。
我看到康尼的那天,她刚被送到收容所的病房,而我则是那儿的志愿者。她的丈夫比尔不安地站在旁边,看着她从轮床被抬到病**。康尼虽然已到了癌症晚期,但仍神清气爽。安顿好她后,我把收容所发放给她的所有用品都标上她的名字,然后又问她是否还需要别的东西。
“哦,”她说,“那么请您告诉我怎样用电视好吗?我很喜欢看肥皂剧,不想错过任何故事情节。”康尼是个追求浪漫的人。她爱看肥皂剧、浪漫小说和言情电影。我们日渐熟识,她向我抱怨说,她有多么失望,与一个常称她“傻女人”的男人共同生活了32年。
“哦,我知道比尔深爱着我,”她说,“可是他从不说他爱我,也从未给我寄过贺卡。”她叹了口气,把目光投向窗外庭院里的树林。“如果他能对我说’我爱你’,让我付出一切我都在所不惜,可是那根本不是他的作风。”
每天比尔都来看望康尼。开始,康尼看肥皂剧时,他就坐在床边陪她。后来,她睡觉的时候多了,比尔便在病房外的走廊踱来踱去。不久后,康尼不再看电视了,清醒的时候也不多了,于是我有了更多的时间与比尔相处。