第20章 心灵独白 1（第1页）

第20章心灵独白（1）

AProposaltoMyself

佚名Anonymous

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&hesemewwordsbeforeyoulistentothisarticle。

1。ign'n？：]v。不顾，不理会；忽视

2。exude[ig'zju：d]v。使渗出；发散（气味等）

3。mysterious[mis'ti？ri？s]adj。神秘的；不可思议的

4。surgeon['s？：d？？n]n。外科医生

5。psyche['saiki]n。灵魂；精神

6。ace[？'kweint？ns]n。相识的人，熟人

7。fused[k？n'fju：zd]adj。困惑的，惶惑的

IamwritingthisthedaybeforeIknowmyfate—thedaybeforeIkowhateninmylife。IamwritingthiswithmymiIwillalifepassmeby。IamdetermiIwillseetheworldithatmaybepossibleforme。IamsurethatIwillbeethiheecarriesmylifeigivesmebadnews。

Iwillhosewhoinsistthatauydegreeistileonlywayyouwillfindameansoflivingthesedays。IwilligellmethatIamadreamerwithoutadream。IwilltellmyselfthatalthoughImayedtocollege，Ihaveseehernlightsthemselvesinfrontofme。IhavetastedthewineinParisandswuminAtlantidPacifis。IhavebeentoanIrishpub，achedthesuheRomanForum。IhaveclimbedtheSsaarsiilIcouldseenomore。

Ihaveexperieisliketolive，andIwilltellmyselfthatevenifthatenvelopeissmallaiotheyhaverejectedwillandgoontoseemoremountainsandswimiersandkeepongthestars，beewhereitiswrittenthatImustuetolivemylifetheto。

&hatwillreachmymailboxtomorraIamreadytobearwithdself-respect。Iwillnotlesstheybetearsgood-byetomychildhoodandwelinginaismysteriousandunkwillteachmetogrowaandwhythihewaytheyare。Owillfilteroutallmyregretsamyself-worthmultiply。

Iwillbestronginmybattlealethingsbringmedown。Iwilltellmyselfthatitisokaytobescatterbrainedonawhileandthatsometimesthekindnessyoushowwillbalayourfaults。IwillknowthatIamagoodpersonadoesn’tnecessarilymeanthatyouareatocollege。IknowwhoIamandtherearebrainsurgeonswhowouldbegedshmymulti-facetedpsyche。

IamwritingthisthedaybeforeIknowmyfate—thedaybeforeIkowhateninmylife。IamwritingthiswithmymiIwillalifepassmeby。IamdetermiIwillseetheworldithatmaybepossibleforme。IamsurethatIwillbeethiheecarriesmylifeigivesmebadnews。

Iwillhosewhoinsistthatauydegreeistileonlywayyouwillfindameansoflivingthesedays。IwilligellmethatIamadreamerwithoutadream。IwilltellmyselfthatalthoughImayedtocollege，Ihaveseehernlightsthemselvesinfrontofme。IhavetastedthewineinParisandswuminAtlantidPacifis。IhavebeentoanIrishpub，achedthesuheRomanForum。IhaveclimbedtheSsaarsiilIcouldseenomore。