第11章 她未曾放弃我 1（第1页）

第11章她未曾放弃我（1）

SheDidn'tGiveuponMe

金伯利·安妮·布兰德KimberlyAnneBrand

Ilayonthefloor，furiouslykigmylegsailmythroatfeltraw—allbecausemyfostermotherhadaskedmetoputmytoysa>

“Ihateyou，”Ishrieked。IwassixyearsoldanddidandwhyIfeltsoangryallthetime。

I’dbeenlivinginfosterceIwastwo。Myrealmom’tgivemyfivesistersaheeeded。Sihaveadadoraocareforus，wewereputierhomes。Ifeltlonelyandfused。Ididn’tknowhowtotellpeoplethatIhurtihrowingatantrumwastheonlywayIkoexpressmyfeelings。

BecauseIactedup，eventuallymyseotheadoptioasthemombeforehad。IthoughtIwasthemostunlovablegirlintheworld。

&KateM。Iwassevenbythattimeandlivingwithmythirdfosterfamilywhe。WhehertoldmethatKatewassiedtoadoptachild，Ididn’tthinkshe’de。Iagineanyonewouldwaolivewiththemforever。

Thatday，Katetookmetoapumpkinfarm。Wehadfun，butIdidn’tthinkI’dseeheragain。

Afewdayslater，asoetothehousetosaythatKatewaoadoptme。ThensheaskedmeifI’dmindlivingwithoeadoftwo。

“AllIwantissomeonewholovesme，”Isaid。

&edtheday。SheexplaiwouldtakeayearfortheadoptiontobefiIoveinwithhersooedbutafraid，too。Katearangers。Iwonderedifshe’dgehermitoknowme。

Katesensedmyfear。“Iknowyou’vebeenhurt，”shesaid，huggingme。“Iknowyou’rescared。ButIpromiseI’llneversendyouaway。We’reafamilynow。”

Tomysurprise，hereyeswerefilledwithtears。SuddehatshewasaslonelyasI>

“Okay。。。Mom，”Isaid。

Thefollowimynearents，aunt，unds。Itfeltfunny—butgood—tobewithstrangerswhohuggedmeasthoughtheyalreadylovedme。

WhehMom，Ihadmyownroomforthefirsttime。Ithaderandamatgbedspread，anantiquedresserandabigcloset。IhadohesI’dbroughtwithmeinabr。“Don’tworry，”Momsaid。“I’llbuyyoulotsofprettyhings。”

&osleepthatnightfeelingsafe。IprayedIwouldoleave。

Momdidlotsofhiookmetochurch。Sheletmehavepetsandgavemehandpianolessons。Everyday，shetoldmeshelovedme。Butlovewasohealthehurtiwaitiogehermind。Ithought，“IfIaough，she’llleavemeliketheothers。”

SoItriedtohurtherbeforeshecouldhurtme。IpickedfightsoverlittlethingsarumswhenIdidmyway。Islammeddoors。IfMomtriedtostopme，I’dhither。Butshepatience。She’dhugmeandsayshelovedmeamad，shemademejumponatrampoline。

BecauseIwasfailinginsIcametolivewithher，Momwasverystriework。OnedayatgTV，shedturoff。“Youwatchitafteryoufinishyourhomework，”shesaid。Iblewup。Ipickedupmybooksahemacrosstheroom。“IhateyouandIdon’twanttolivehereanymore！”Iscreamed。

Iwaitedforhertotellmet。Whe。Iasked，“Aren’tyougoingtosendmeback？”

“Idohewayyou’rebehaving，”shesaid，“butI’llneversendyouback。We’reafamily，agiveupoher。”