第4章 黑猫4(第1页)
第4章黑猫(4)
&asIsat,halfstupefied,inadehaninfamy,myattentionwassuddenlydrawntosomeblackupontheheadofoheimmensehogsheadsofGin,orofRum,whistitutedtheitureoftheapartment。Ihadbeenlookithetopofthishogsheadforsomeminutes,andwhatnowcausedmesurprisewasthefactthatIhadnotsooheobjectthereupon。Iapproachedit,ahmyhand。Itwasablackcat—averylargeone—fullyaslargeasPluto,andclhimioohadnotaonanyportionofhisbody;butthiscathadalarge,althoughichofwhite,earlythewhio。
Uponmytoughim,heimmediatelyarose,purredlainstmyhand,aedwithmyhen,wastheverycreatureofwhichIwasioopurchaseitofthelandlord;butthispersonmadenoclaimtoit—khingofit—hadbefore。
Iycaresses,and,wheogohome,theanimalevincedadispositiontoae。Ipermittedittodoso;oallystoopingandpattingitasIproceeded。Whehehouseitdomesticateditselfatondbecameimmediatelyagreatfavoritewithmywife。
Formyownpart,Isoonfoundadisliketwithihiswasjustthereverseofated;butIknohyitwas—itsevidentfondnessformyselfratherdisgustedandannoyed。Byslowdegrees,thesefeelingsofdisgustandaothebitterred。Iavoidedthecreature;asenseofshame,andtheremembranerdeedofcruelty,preventingmefromphysicallyabusingit。Ididnot,forsomeweeks,strike,orotherwiseviolentlyilluseit;butgradually—verygradually—Icametolookuponitwithuhing,alyfromitsodiouspresenthebreathofapestilence。
Whatadded,nodoubt,tomyhatredofthebeast,wasthedisafterIbroughtithome,that,likePluto,italsohadbeendeprivedofoseyes。Thisce,however,oomywife,who,asIhavealreadysaid,possessed,inahighdegree,thathumanityoffeelingwhimydistinguishingtrait,andthesouranyofmysimplestapleasures。
Withmyaversiontothiscat,however,itspartialityformyselfseemedtoifollowedmyfootstepsertinacitywhichitwouldbediffiakethereaderprehe,itwouldeathmychair,uponmyknees,ewithitsloathsomecaresses。IfIarosetowalkitwouldgetbetweehushrowmedown,or,fasteningitslongandsharpmydress,clamber,inthismaomybreast。Atsuchtimes,althoughIlowithabloithheldfromsodoing,partlybyamemoryofmyformercrime,butchiefly—letmefessitatonce—byabsolutedreadofthebeast。
Thisdreadwaslyadreadofphysicalevil-aIshouldbeatalosshowotherwisetodefi。Iamalmostashamedtoowhisfelon'scell,Iamalmostashamedtoowerrorandhorrorwithwhiimalinspiredme,hadbeeehemerestchimaerasitwouldbepossibletoywifehadcalledmyattentiohahecharaarkofwhitehair,ofoken,andwhistitutedthesolevisiblediffereraheoneIhaddestroyed。Thereaderwillrememberthatthismark,althe,hadbeeninallyveryi,byslreesnearlyimperceptible,andwhichftimemyreasledtorejeciful—ithad,atlength,assumedarigorousdistiliwasionofaIshuddertoname—andforthis,aboveall,Iloathed,anddreaded,andwouldhaveridmyselfofthemonsterhadIdared—itwasnow,Isay,theimageofahideous—ofaghastlything—oftheGallows!—oh,mournfulandterribleengineofHorrorandonyah!
AndnowwasIidthewretereHumanity。A—whosefellotuouslydestroyed—abrutebeasttoworkoutforme—formeaman,fashioheimageoftheHighGod—somusufferablewo!Alas!herbydaynhtkheblessiaheformerthecreatureleftmealone;aer,Istarted,hourly,fromdreamsofuofibreathofthethinguposvastweight—ani-MarethatIhadoshakeoff—iernallyupo!
&hepressureoftormentssuchasthese,thefeebleremnahinmesuccumbed。Evilthoughtsbeates—thedarkestahoughts。Themoodinessofmyusualtemperiredofallthingsandofallmankihesudde,andungoversofafurytowhiowblindlyabandonedmyself,myunplainingwife,shewasthemostusualaientofsufferers。